these rainy days are bringing upon rainy eyes.

drowsy skies accompanied by blurry smiles.

clouded memories of joyous days. 

happiness seems to be fading away. 

lately, i am in such a slump. just completely and utterly miserable, no happiness is present. I honestly have no idea what is going on. life is literally catching up on me and i can't handle it. my eyes twitch from stress as my hands shake with nerves. i cried for no reason in my  car, and by cry i mean bawled my eyes. i sat and wondered why am i crying and i couldn't even understand except it was everything. im just so tired of pretending everythings alright when everything isn't. money, school, my future, my mom. the fact that i dont talk about anything doesnt help either i guess. looks like im just gonna have to "suck it up" and smile and look pretty. thats all

xoxo